Love _{is life's most} ^Beautiful _{mystery. It often comes as a surprise, filling the heart with sudden} ^Joy. _{Selfless and giving,} Love _{places the happiness of another before one's own. It inspired with its} ^Passion, _{nurtures with its} ^Generosity, _{and enriches with its} ^Spirit. _{There is no limit to its magic.} Love _is ^Eternal.
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This is to those people at school, or even here on Dev that just really seem to dislike me.

First of all, I'd like to apologize to the people I've done wrong. I know i can be insensitive sometimes, and i might ramble on about something for a long time and it'll get annoying. And i know i seem to talk about the same thing all the time, but i do that because nobody ever talks to me about anything new. I'm kind've shut out. ._.

I would also like to make one thing clear. I never like to talk about my Mental disabilities to people; mainly because I'm already 'Fucked up' apparently. but, it should be plain to see i have some type of Attention Disorder; and Asbergers. Just because i have those, though, doesn't mean I'm some Mentally-Fucked-up special-ed student. So don't treat me like one. I know some f my friends are just 'naturally' Sarcastic, but you don't have to be 'extra' sarcastic to me because i have a fucked up, one track brain.

Now, with me saying that, I'm not making fun of Special Ed students. I have two mentally Challenged siblings myself. I'm just trying to make a point that I'm TIRED of being treated like I'm LOWER THAN FUCKING DIRT.

Now, I've had some friends leave me for reasonable reasons. And i like to think that I've apologized enough to where they don't want me to disappear off the face of the earth. But I'd also like them to realize a partial amount of my... 'special'-ness is not my conscious fault.

Recently (Within the last month) I've been doing really badly in my classes. Not because I'm Fucking stupid, but because I'm being Mentally and Physically abused by my peers. Everyday when i walk into that school I'm treated like... Nothing i can even think of.

I'm pushed, I'm shoved, I'm thrown around, I'm Spat on, I'm kicked, I'm punched, I'm told i should die. and why?

BECAUSE I WAS BORN DIFFERENTLY!?

The people i don't even KNOW THEIR FUCKING NAMES treat me like I FUCKING KILLED THEIR MOTHERS. WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!? DID I EVER EVEN SPEAK TO YOU!? GODDAMN.

I have NEVER said a mean thing to ANYBODY. (Except... Stephanie and Summer. And i truthfully wish to apologize to them. they really don't Deserve it... Not all of it at least.) And yet people treat me like i stared them in the eyes and said the most DEMEANING, INSULTING, BEFOULING thing.

And, not to mention, this last week or two, i lost the one friend who i thought really didn't give a fuck if i was different. The thing's I've heard them say about me have made me WISH i had the guts to slit my throat.

But last night i had a long talk with my soon-to-be Step-mom, and she told me about HER experience with being labeled a Lesbian.

And now i think about it... That One friend... Is only 1 in 150 billion people on this earth. 1/150,000,000,000. That's a really stupid statistic.

Now, all the kids that have treated me like Fucking Shit at school are only about this much; 350/150,000,000,000. That's still a really stupid statistic.

Fuck 'em. Fuck all of 'em.

I'm a good person. I ALWAYS tried to treat my friends with the greatest amount of respect, to the point i was SCARED to say something wrong and make them NOT happy. Not a single one of my 'ex-friends' can say i NEVER asked them if it was OK for me to do something, whether it was something small, or big.

And as long as i KNOW I'm a GOOD PERSON, that's all that really matters, right? Because as long as I'm a GOOD PERSON and focus more on my work than making fun of that Girl or guy that's a GOOD PERSON, then I'm going to get a lot farther than any guy or girl that spent their whole life teasing other people.

My Step-mom told me about one girl who told her everyday that she deserved to die. She got curious about a week ago and look for her on Facebook. You know what she found? That woman had been arrested at least 5 times, was going through her second divorce, and had 6 kids.

Are you Kidding me? You could have gone to COLLEGE. Gotten a JOB. MADE SOMETHING OF YOURSELF FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. She had so much potential, but she threw it all away by making the wrong choices.

I'm not going to let that happen to me, or the people i love and care about. Those friends of mine that have come and go, i still believe they are good people. Even when they stare me in the eyes and tell me they wish I'd go to Hell, i know they are still a good person, and i wish them the best.

Thank you for reading this far. And if your one of the people this is addressed to; i hope you know i always thought you were better than the way your acting now. And i know each one of you have to the potential to change it while your ahead. I just hope you make the right choice.

~Madison

Love _{is life's most} ^Beautiful _{mystery. It often comes as a surprise, filling the heart with sudden} ^Joy. _{Selfless and giving,} Love _{places the happiness of another before one's own. It inspired with its} ^Passion, _{nurtures with its} ^Generosity, _{and enriches with its} ^Spirit. _{There is no limit to its magic.} Love _is ^Eternal.
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MY DREAMS ARE FINALLY COMING TRUE. -SOB-

Love _{is life's most} ^Beautiful _{mystery. It often comes as a surprise, filling the heart with sudden} ^Joy. _{Selfless and giving,} Love _{places the happiness of another before one's own. It inspired with its} ^Passion, _{nurtures with its} ^Generosity, _{and enriches with its} ^Spirit. _{There is no limit to its magic.} Love _is ^Eternal.
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<sub>I'm gonna hold a contest, for some inspiration. <3 Anyone can enter. It's for my Kitty boy's new looks. Here are their current descriptions;


Name: Dhaval Arjuna Indra (Formerly Desukeke)
Nickname: DJ
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Ethnicity: Indian
Breed: Snow Tiger
Home: New York City, New York
Occupation: Broadway Singer
Lover: Rex Scott Murder
APPEARANCE: Short sleeved light blue t-shirt, Tan shorts, brown cargo boots, beaded necklace, White fur/black stripes, black/brown hair, green eyes (Dont forget his face markings!)


Name: Neo Kosana Dakarai (Formerly Rayne)
Age: 18
Sex: Male
Ethnicity: African, Caucasian
Breed: Leopard
Home: Los Angeles
Occupation: Cross-Dresser comedian
Lover: -Single-
APPEARANCE: Black/Purple checkered Hoodie, purple/green checkered pants, black boots, black hair, blue eyes, Yellow with Black/brown spots (Face markings, too)


Name: Amadi Enitan (Formerly Chouri)
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Ethnicity: African Asian
Breed: Lion
Home: Topica, Kansas
Occupation: Librarian
Lover: Kendal
APPEARANCE: Tan Jacket with BIG FUZZY COLLAR (His Makeshift mane), brown/tan/mahogany striped shirt, brown low rise pants, brown sneakers, light brown hair, blue eyes


Name: Elliot Smithson (Originally… Eichi :< )
Nickname: Eichi
Age: 22
Sex: Male
Ethnicity: Caucasian
Breed: Bombay Housecat
Home: Sacramento, California
Occupation: Professional Chef
Lover: Aubree Smithson
APPEARANCE: Black leather Jacket, Magenta/Black/white striped shirt, Purple pants, Brown boots, black hair (No more streaks :3), and blue eyes (This means no more green highlights on his fur/ears/tail, either)

The prizes will be like this;

1ST PLACE: 2 full Photoshopped Pictures
2ND PLACE: 2 full Inked 'n Colored Pictures
3RD PLACE: 2 B/W Inked Pictures (Lineart with shading)
4TH PLACE: 1 B/W Inked Picture

Each of the different Kitty boys will be treated as it's own contest. So if you enter a drawing for more than one boy, your illegible for winning a place for both of them. Your welcome to enter one drawing for each boy, even if it's in the same deviation. I'll decide a deadline when people start entering.</sub>

Love _{is life's most} ^Beautiful _{mystery. It often comes as a surprise, filling the heart with sudden} ^Joy. _{Selfless and giving,} Love _{places the happiness of another before one's own. It inspired with its} ^Passion, _{nurtures with its} ^Generosity, _{and enriches with its} ^Spirit. _{There is no limit to its magic.} Love _is ^Eternal.
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I'm killing off my cat boys. I feel so unoriginal with them.

They all have the exact same personalities, no uniqueness at all. And... Where the F*** did i get the idea of making them all brothers? Seriously? I have serious issues when coming up with ideas for characters. Seriously.

So, I'm killing them all. They're all gone. I'm gonna spend the next few weeks trying to recreate them (With the exception of Sunan, since he's my most recent, and i spent a lot of time on him already, trying to make him unique. And actually make SOLID REFS and not just throw around info randomly as i go along. I'm sorry for those of you who like them the way they were (Which i bet is none of you) But i'm just too disgusted with the 5 whore-ish kitty boys i had.

Seriously, they were all exactly the same. :/

Love _{is life's most} ^Beautiful _{mystery. It often comes as a surprise, filling the heart with sudden} ^Joy. _{Selfless and giving,} Love _{places the happiness of another before one's own. It inspired with its} ^Passion, _{nurtures with its} ^Generosity, _{and enriches with its} ^Spirit. _{There is no limit to its magic.} Love _is ^Eternal.
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<sub>... Jk. It's a Featured Art list. <3

The Featured Artwork list is going to be all the people on my 'Friends' list, not EVERYONE i watch. lol.
The People on my Friends list are really the only people who's pages i actually pay attention to. Dont worry, if your not on the list your still my friend, believe me. <3

Starting with the first on the list...


~cybeastwarrior
You and I are Royally Fucked, old buddy. <3 Still love you.



LMFAO at that last one. Lololol.


~loofie1
If i knew you in real life, i'd ask you to marry me. XDDD LOL JKJKJK.
... But seriously;



Why do those last two pics have to be so Sexy? x_x;


*Drasus
Another Role-Model of mine. lol. Your awesomely-epicly-incredible. Mhmm. <3


I still cannot thank her enough for those two requests <3


~Narutofan098
I love you like a sister Nikki. Teehee. <3 Miss you!




~gaaraandedlover1
Caassseeeeyyyyy~ <3 Lol. Your art is incredible, and inspiring!




~Della-Fox
MMMMM. IT BEGIS. *BEGINS. LOL.


Lol at Hayden. <3


*b-marble
Nnst. Nnst. Nnst. <3 Your art is sexy, even if it's not supposed to be. Lmao.



I love that first one, oddly enough. <3 AND THE SECOND/THIRD ONES GIVES ME BO- Euhm. Nevermind... :3


=midnightSILENCE-x



I cant say a single thing i love about these, i love EVERYTHING ABOUT THEM. Especially the kitty. <3 I want~

(Skipping Claudya, because it's kind've Biast... Hehe. )


Aaaannnd... That's it. Hehehe. Sweet :3 you all get cookies for being featured. Lol.</sub>